Blurred World

It has been here as long as I have I think, settling in the sand. The current drags through like a wind,  carrying small reef-building creatures to this outpost.   When I was a child it looked different.  It was a room then, the brass knobs spit-shined  and the drawers filled with carefully folded clothes; the sheets on the small bed slightly rumpled,  the corners tucked in. A lamp, a little table and chair.  These were mine. Back then, mine meant always, or, if you like, an open cannister holding the two fragile wings of this and now: mother and father and sister.   What brought me here? Algae covers the bedstead  like a tiny dark forest. A moon snail creeps across the floor in a straight line.    Sixty feet down, color leeches from everything, even the red charm I bought in Tibet  for my mother, whose body had crystalized. Red is for long life. “Her abdomen is frozen,”  the oncologist said.    The moon snail is almost out of sight.  Its gray, wrinkled body passes over the sand in that same straight line toward the end of the continental shelf and the drop-off. I watch for others, visitors, a gleam of something turning away in the blue.    It is not childhood, exactly.  A shoe drifts by.   There are my table and chair too small to sit at. They say: all along you have not seen even one thing clearly.   

Already have an account? Log in

Want to keep reading? Join our community:


Support great writing by becoming a full subscriber to Liberties Journal.

Subscribe Today

Free Preview

Sign up with your email address, and access two free articles per month.

We hope you've enjoyed your free articles!

Become a full subscriber for only $50/year, (33% off cover price).

Thank you for supporting great writing.

Subscribe Today
Log In Subscribe

Sign Up For Free

Read 2 free articles a month after you register below.

Register now